Thursday, December 27, 2007
walked home with mummy with all tt heavy pots and pans tt my mum bought @orchard istean private sale...the private sale aint private at all ,there were so many ppl and so little space =( felt like sardines in a can ,the queue was long like a snakes and i abhor snakes .....
tts nort the main story actually
todae as i was walking home ...there was this indian kid in the arms of his maid ...he stared at me with those eyes tt cld melt ...he stretched out his little hands and tried to reach out for me =) he said with enthusiasm "JIE JIE JIE JIE " man ...so spontaneous ...i think the world needs more children like him who reminds us of how we shld treat others ...no preconcieved judgements ,no jealousy ,just sincerity =)
i wanna be a person of character ....let nort my heart be hardened so tt i can be shapped by god ...im longing for u dear lord ...hav u seen uncle allan ? he radiates ...always so happy and so enthu abt god ,always trusting in him ...i wanna be like tt =)
rainbow;
9:11 AM
Monday, December 24, 2007
had a blast yest ! haha i caught up with chun in the morn (tan chun actually ,surname tan, name :chun )lols yes shes affectionately known as chunny to the pl lites .tan chun is still the same ,no worries =) and like aunties we still reminience abt the past ...i sweared not to eat ayam penyet (smashed indo fried chicken ) cause i fell sick immediately the last time i had tt but fate came into my way haha chun decided to eat there !kk i decided to be brave and try it again to see if my throat is immune to super fried stuff...this time thou i cheated cause imediately drown my throat with lang tae (cooling tea) aft the meal.anywaes i had fun ...girls being girls ..its amazing how we can not meet for 2 yrs and still be able to find a toic to talk abt frm 1-6 pluss ! orchanrd is a great place to meet up long lost friends ,mainly the ppl whom u did not plan to go out with ,within a span of 2 hrs it is possible to meet up with 4-5 ppl u havent seen in a long time ,saw miss too ! haha bei yi ,ruoyi and a couple of couples frm ac yest .
when it was dawn my mum dragged us to her friends house ,we hopped on to the car then she said "aaye walk larz ,its v.near" this time we sighedd cause we had agar agar,chocos and wine in our hands ,v.heavy ...we just wanted to whine and complain ,she didnt tell us how near is near ,but she was kind to our feet cause her friend happens to be our neighbour who lives the next lane and abt 100 meters away frm us .yay i was happy ....got to know their kids =) v.humble and v.down to earth ppl whom u can click with quite easily their daughter is a doctor in training +) (cool rites they sae tt they will give us free medical treatment as good will ...lols but we are gonna be strong =)))she definetely caught my attention with her personality ,a quiet demeanour but confident ...i havent met anyone like her ...its impossible to make enemies with her actually i think .their son is my age ,he is definetely an aunti killer ,haha someone like paul but abit more man ...like my bro ....v.gentlemanly.singapore is seriously v.small !cause i happen to know 2 of his friends frm hashims econs class,that helped quite a bit to break the ice =)i think ....good children are the products of good parents ,i enjoyed listening to aunty lynette and her husband ,thou i do not know them ,they offered us good advice abt life ,i mean i havent met anybody in a long time who gives me sound advice .....tts my fav christmas gift this year ... !
rainbow;
8:20 PM
Saturday, December 22, 2007
IM so glad i dun think the church peeps can find or read my blog ,i mean if u happen to chance upon it then err haha just my luck .
u noe when i think of my spritual walk with god ill label it as dry ....derks as in instead of being filled with the sprit im emotionally drained when i go to church .thus i dun think im gonna commit to being a cgl for now if i wanna commit im gonnan commit for at least 4 yrs .at least must watch them grow till they r sec4 =) i need 2 mths to pray abt it
why am i emotionally drained? hahah many factors i guess
-ive watched toomany of my cgls leave
-i feel tt the ppl arnd me dun realli care abt god except for the few ppl like gen ,rach whom i hang out with(with them i finally feel like im going to church)
-ppl are kinda cliquish(eg.rj gang) ,and there arent many ppl my age or older than me ,sometimes i feel alone when my cell aint arnd .
but then again ,kk im nort so alone i guess when i look at my convos im talking to joel,jon .c and tim heyy nort bad wat but dunnoe whats been bugging me .
mabey god wants me to change church ?
todae as i walked into my parents church i kinda cried a little in my heartt,ive nv felt so much peace for so long ..i know in my heart tt gods presence saturates tt place...man i was just walking! i recognise tt feeling ,its the feeling i get when i feel touched by god ....but i dun understand 2 diff church but i get 2 diff feeling ones heavy the other is light whats happening?...how strange ...davin walked up to me todae to join coos sr camp! and it clashes with plmcs sr camp...is god creating tt window of opp?i mean i dun realli know davin and he was rooted behind me with all the forms .baaaaaaaaa kk
if i join coos ...ill be more spritually filled and start off as a nobody
if i continue with plmc ill learn to grow as a cgl and watch my girls grow which is rewarding ...but at the expanse of my spritual growth
in times like this ....pray !i dun like to be wishy wasshy and dun want to
rainbow;
10:39 AM
Sunday, December 16, 2007
with regards to my last post ...i feel dissapointed with myself ...did i sae ill abandon them with all tt sarcastic undertones ? rarrr but then again i dun hav the patience and i feel they might be better off under another leader who has a soft and gentle sprit ...at least i know i cant do this on my own and i dun want to ever have to hurt their feelings when they annoy me.i think their souls are v.fragile so yeap =)well see abt it who knows mabey this is gods challenge for me ..to stick with them and help them to grow over the next ????yrs (WHAA...kk im scared)
rainbow;
12:56 AM
Friday, December 14, 2007
back frm jr camp as a facilitator frm sentosa ....
when i prayed for patience with theese kids,i had more than what i had bargained for with those 4 bossy pri 6 girls who obviously have v.protective parents who constantly watch over their every move to make sure their golden toes do not lay foot on *oUCH sand (mind u ,sentosa has loads of theese),make sure the sprinkling of the watering cans of the skyes do not melt them to reduce them to an even tinnier frame,make sure they do not visit a public toilet for fear of HANTAI (i learnt frm them tt tts the word for all perverts out there young or old ),whoose fav tagline is "please can u continue to give in to us ? "and girls who giggle and keep to themselves and are terrified of boys ...my prayer for them is realli to become more rugged as they grow up ,to embrace challenges and to have more initiative ...it was tiring cause they need constant attention and loads of instruction but quite an eyeopeaner =) at least i have a better idea of how i wanna bring up my kids in the future ...what kept me sane were the older kids =) man if i get those girls for cell i will.........i willllll ....seriously cry. cause i hav a strong feelin tt they will be in my cell ...but pls god ....dun lehs.but thank you for sustaining me through this camp =) i was overjoyed when keane asked me how i cld be so patient with theese girls or when shawn thanked me for being his leader .....man we all need encouragement to move on in life ...i havent thanked my parents for taking care of me for the last 18 yrs ..im sure ive been a pain many times in their lives =)
moral of the story is :DO NOT PRAY FOR PATIENCE IF U ARE NOT UP FOR IT
u noe it still amazes me how we managed to remian top 5 for all camp activities(except war game) even tho we were physically challenged ,we were the group tt were able bid for the most items available with our points ...when i look at the other grps ...im convinced tt i must be dreaming =) aniwaes tt doesnt matter cause we are all happy=)
aniwaes my dream child wld hav a passion for life and the things tt he or she does ,loves challenges ,love life and the people of the world ,RUGGED,love god n his parents,have higher than avg eq and iq=)there there aint u jealous of my dream child? haha
rainbow;
6:14 AM
